I LOST MY SMILE

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Can you help me find my smile
It has been gone for such a long while

It use to reside upon my face
But now there is nothing left in its place

I swear I saw it just the other day
But it seems like it has been wiped away

Nothing about me is even the same
No type of emotion even remains

Why did this have to happen to me
Will it be lost forever, I’ll wait to see

Without my smile I shall forever remain lost
Help me find it soon, and spare no cost

My smile once lit up an entire room
By bringing in sunshine and ridding it of gloom

My smile has brought much joy to so many
By spreading happiness to more than a plenty

My smile has helped me through so many days
Acting like a bright light that shows me the way

My smile has even been considered contagious
Believe me such a thing is not at all outrageous

Thinking about all the joy that my smile can bring
Just makes my heart melt and feel all kind of things

Really did not realize that impact that my smile has had
How on earth could I ever be sad

Think I better check once again
Cause I think I might even see a small grin

Wait a minute I think I might have found my smile
Guess what yall it was here all the while

The Imperfect Me

I don't care like so many others to drive a fancy car
I have yet in my life to travel to places very far

I don't even like to shop at the mall
I will never be considered the Belle of the Ball

I once use to be so very shy
I swear it is so very easy for me to cry

I grew up in the streets of the inner city
I didn't even think that I was all that pretty

I use to be called Ms. Goody-Two-Shoes
I don't know if anybody knows all the hell that I been through

I never once thought I could be among the best
I guess cause I compared myself to all of the rest

I don't care if I never experience my claim to fame
I don't even care if people know me by name

I possess of multitude of outstanding skills
I don't promote them cause I chose to live a life of no frills

I enjoy living my life primarily behind the scenes
I rather keep a low profile by being unseen

I am like a turtle hidden deep in his shell
In total conclusion I prefer to dwell

I like the simplest pleasures
I think it’s these things I most treasure

I really don't like to boast or to brag
I think about it and it just makes me gag

I guess there is alot wrong with me
I think this is the way God has made me to be

I guess some people might not like what they see
But I am truly happy just being the IMPERFECT ME.

If I Could Design My Life

I would make myself a famous movie star,
and because of my greatness I would make it really far.

I could become an astronaut and fly to the moon,
or not get out of bed each day until it was noon.

Maybe I could become richer than Mr. Bill Gates, or
cruise through the countryside on a pair of hot roller skates.

I could travel with Obama to participate in the G twenty,
then feed all the hungry because I would have plenty of money.

I would come up with a more stronger economic plan,
or join the fight in this war with my fellow man.

I could come up with a cure for sickness all across the land,
or join in singing Cum By Ya with others hand in hand

If I could design my life lord only knows what I would do,
because I haven't got one single clue.

But since I do not have any design skills,
guess I better take my ass to work so I can pay all my bills.

Diggin You

I must admit I got it bad for you
Cause my ass is cold hard diggin you

You the hottest brotha I ever seen
Got me sprung just like a dope fiend

You got my ass acting like I'm all high
Thinking I am superman all ready to fly

I'm feeling you all up in my back
I swear I feel like I just smoked crack

Damn look at that hardness in his pants
Girl I think I done gone into a trance

Girl I think I am ready for a treat
Cause that brotha got some big ass feet

Swear it feel like I died and gone to heaven
Cause this brotha got me open like the seven eleven

I think I am experiencing a code nine
Call the paramedics cause my ass just flat lined

You got me actin like a kid in the candy store
All up at the counter begging for more

I feel like I done landed in the twilight zone
Cause I'm acting like ET ready to pick up the phone

Oh how I'm digging your fly ass swagger
Lookin at you sends my ass into a stagger

Yea yea I know I am acting like I'm all sprung
But did you see that brotha's long tongue

I'm running up after you all up in the streets
Gotta me actin like a bitch all up in heat

Yall lookin at me like yall don't no what's the deal
Talkin about yall go send my ass to Dr. Phil

I must admit I got it bad for you
Cause my ass is cold hard diggin you

These Three Words......Pure and Simple

I LOVE YOU is probably one of the most under-utilized three words in the english vocabulary. I know me personally I do not use these words as often as I should. In reading Facebook this morning one of my dear friend's Tasha Crews said these words "Because tomorrow isn't promised I just want 2 send my LOVE to all my family and friends." What if instead of losing Patrick Swayze you lost your mother, father, sister, brother, son or daughter and anyone you LOVE. Tasha's words resonated in my heart and mind. It got me to really thinking about what saying I LOVE YOU can do. LOVE can bring joy. LOVE can heal. LOVE is such a powerful word and powerful emotional. All you have to do is say "I LOVE YOU" and watch what happens. I am going to make a new declaration to say "I LOVE YOU" everyday to my love ones. Don't wait until it is to late. I LOVE my mom, dad, daughters, husband, family and friends. Start today, start right now. I will start by saying "I LOVE YOU."

High Maintenance

Honey you say you want to holla at me
Do you have your credentials so that I can see

Cause high maintenance I am,
So you better come correct if you want to be my man

Please don't tell me you got bad credit
Cause if you are trying to get with me then you can forget it

Cause high maintenance I am,
So you better come correct if you want to be my man

What kinda car do you currently drive
Hope it ain't no little ass BMW 325i

Cause high maintenance I am,
So you better come correct if you want to be my man

Don't you dare tell me you live with your mama
Cause I refuse to deal with the drama

Cause high maintenance I am,
So you better come correct if you want to be my man

Hope you ain't only looking for just a few thrills
Cause I am looking for a man to pay all my bills

Cause high maintenance I am,
So you better come correct if you want to be my man

I expect to be treated just like a queen
So don't you dare ask me to cook and to clean

Cause high maintenance I am,
So you better come correct if you want to be my man

No I have never worked for a living
Cause I feast on the good life just like thanksgiving

Cause high maintenance I am,
So you better come correct if you want to be my man

So honey if you can't afford to be my man
Then maybe I can just put you on the installment plan

Cause high maintenance I am,
So you better come correct if you want to be my man

I Am In My Season

Currently I am feeling something that I just can't explain
It is a feeling that I wish would wholeheartedly remain

I don't know the Reason,
But maybe I am in my Season

In the past I had a deep whole that live down inside
But in the place Jesus Christ currently resides

I don't know the Reason,
But maybe I am in my Season

There was a time when I was always so sad and down
But now I wear a big smile instead of a frown

I don't know the Reason,
But maybe I am in my Season

I use to be so unsure about almost everything
Now I am more prepared for whatever life shall bring

I don't know the Reason,
But maybe I am in my Season

There use to be so many doors closed along my way
Now more doors are opening to much brighter days

I don't know the Reason,
But maybe I am in my Season

Oh yeah my season has come
I am ready to grab the bull by the horn
There is so much more for me to do
Cause I am in the midst of my breakthrough

Most definitely God almighty is the Reason
That I am experiencing my Season

THE FACE OF A RECESSION

During hard and difficult times

We count our pennies, nickels and dimes

We are often forced to cut back

So that we do not have to lack

Sometimes we are barely able

To put adequate food on the table

We shop at the second hand store

Just to give our kids a little more

The times when we are in pain

At home we must remain

Without adequate healthcare

Our life will be lived in despair

Although we daily seek

The job market is very bleak

People are losing their homes

To the streets they are sent to roam

Some people have ended their life

Just not deal with all this strife

Many people are really sad

Because things are just so bad

There is much concern

As to when this tide will turn

Although this isn’t the great depression

We are currently facing a major recession

Go Get Your Healing

When you have a lot of problems you been dealing

Take it to a sacred place for spiritual healing

No matter how much your are going through

There is always plenty of room there for you

You will never be turned away

Cause healing takes place any time of the day

Whether you clap your hands or get down on your knees

The healing you receive will be sure to please

So stop handling all of your problems all alone

Your healing awaits you at the foot of the throne

MY LOVE STORY

At the time you entered my life

I was dealing with so much strife

I was in so much pain

I didn’t even think I could sustain

At the time we met I wasn’t even ready

To deal with something more steady

We had to take things real slow

If we had any chance for this to grow

You didn’t fuss or put up a fight

You just wanted to make sure I was alright

In time our friendship grew

We had a chance to start anew

I really did not have a clue

That at the time I was so in love with you

I was so afraid to take a chance

To explore our budding romance

So I decided to give you my heart

And you told me that you would never part

You said you wanted to share your life

So you asked me to be your wife

After 14 years of being together

We are headed to making our love last forever

A FAMILY

A family provides a shoulder to lean on.

It is much stronger than krypton.

A family provides the rainbow on a sunny day.

It is the road map to help us find the way.

A family provides us with strongholds and high towers.

It is how we gain so much power.

A family keeps us in perfect peace.

It is something we never want to cease.

A family provides constant prayer from above.

It is how they show their love.

A family provides refuge during the storm.

It is how they usually perform.

A family teaches us dignity and pride.

It is how we learn to abide.

A family teaches us with their support we can’t go wrong.

It is helps us grow up to become big and strong.

Despite the distance set between us,

Despite our good and bad days,

Despite the various textures of our hair,

Despite the different colors of our skin,

Despite the hurtful things we sometime say.

I am, you are, we are …… A FAMILY.

Life's Journey

Life's journey is filled with many ups and downs.
During the midst of it all sometimes we smile and sometimes we frown.
The road often curves to the left and then to the right.
Because of the choices we make sometimes we are wrong and rarely right.
These curves present us with challenges that we must face everyday.
Oh you better believe that they are going to come without any delay.
Sometimes we grow weary in our quest.
While we strive to give it our very best.
Often we choose to give up the fight, because we have to go through so much just to see the light.
Who said the journey was going to be all peaches and cream.
For many of us that is merely a dream.
So we must decide how to cope with the cards that we are given.
They are going to keep coming as long as we are among the living.
Shall we just lay down and collapse as if we are bleeding.
Or shall we fight on and keep on believing.
So rise up and stand tall.
Oh yes we are going to fall.
But knowing that we can rise once again.
To live another day for a chance to finally win.
Our journey as just really begun.
It will start at the rising of the sun.

The Wind

The wind blows so softly against my skin,
I swear I can almost feel it within.
The way it makes me feel,
I sometimes thinks it isn't real.
It's wonders often have me in a daze,
When I think all about them I am totally amazed.
It feels almost like a soft kiss or a gentle caress,
A feeling that I long for nevertheless.
The way it moves so gentle and swift,
It almost seems as though it gives me a lift.
It often sings in a sweet whistling tone,
It comforts me so I don’t feel alone.
The wind blows more strongly during a storm,
I know it doesn’t last so no need for alarm.
I long for the wind to blow for evermore,
Because I know that it has more in store.

The Storm

The Storm

It comes without any justification, to utter you much devastation
It is much like a thief in the night, to stomp out your glimmer of light.
It comes without warning or alarm, to do nothing but bring you harm
It comes to greet you ready or not, to act out its fiendish plot.

The storm came in a great big wave; you survived it because you were brave.
The storm caused you much pain; you fought against it because you had much to gain.
The storm came at the wrong time in your life; you fought hard to lessen its strife.
The storm did deliver you some damage, but because you were strong you were able to manage.

The night has fallen and morning has come.
The storm is over and I can see the light.
Next time is comes, I will be ready for the fight.

My Journey

Today I have reached a milestone in my life. I have more years behind me that I may have before me. I do not know what God has in store for me but I know that being able to see forty years is a huge deal. We all can look back and say that we might have a lost a son, a daughter, a mother, a father, a sister or a brother or another. Some of us have reached forty and some of us have yet to get there. If you have crossed this bridge before me than you are truly blessed and if you have not I hope you have the chance to experience this rite of passage.

In my forty years I have experienced great pain and great joy. Great sorrow and great happiness. Great weakness and great strength. I bear many scars both inner and outer during my forty years. I thank God today for allowing me to see forty. My high school yearbook bears this quote that I believe has been a testament on how I lived through failures and through triumphs “Life is something to cherish not to waste, so take every opportunity to succeed and make it great.” Despite it all I still stand tall and my wounds have healed. I look back over my life without any regrets. I would not change the road that I have traveled, because when my road lead me the wrong way I had the strength and conviction to know when to travel another way. I did not settle for mediocrity I pushed on to achieve greatness.

I still have more chapters in my book of life to write. I still have more experiences to encounter. My hope is that through it all I have learned and grown through love, hope and faith. Through my walk I have learned how to be a better a mother, a wife, and more importantly a better person.

I want to thank all my Facebook friends both new and old. I want to thank all my family members who I have reacquainted with. I want to thank all the new family members I have had the esteemed pleasure of getting to know. I want to thank each and every one of you for being a part of my life story and ask that you continue on my journey whether long or short as I strive to continue on the make my mark in this great wo

The Plane

During the course of being in business. I have had the opportunity to attend numerous networking events and seminars. I am like a sponge, I love going to these events because I also learn something very useful from them.

A few years ago I attended one seminar that has stuck with me to this very day. At this particular event, the speaker was talking about how an plane can help you to organize your life. As I sat there I thought how in the heck can an airplane help to organize my life. The speaker captivated my mind and had definitely commanded my attention.

She began speak about how a plane has First Class, Coach and Stand By. As she said these word she asked the audience to repeat them, so I did, First Class, Coach and Stand By. For those who have had the opportunity to travel in First Class, as I could only imagine, you are supposedly given the royal treatment. I would imagine that you get more than just peanuts, a glass of wine and maybe even a nice meal. In Coach you get those little bags of peanuts or pretzels and maybe a cup of soda. (Mind you this seminar was before the recession, so think of the good old days). As for Stand By you are waiting to get on the plane, so you get your own refreshments.

As she continued she began to explain how each classification pertained to the people in your life. In First Class you put people who are always there for you no matter what. The people you can call on and they are there in a hurry. The people who would give you the royal treatment much like you would get if you were to fly in first class. Secondly, your people in Coach are the ones who are there for you some of the time. These are the ones you can call on but you gotta basically call on them more than once before they move on your because. They are like those little bags of peanuts and pretzels, only there for a little while. Finally, the people in Stand By are those are on the receiving end and not the giving end. You could not count on then if your life depended upon it. After hearing this is was in total AWE. I said that I needed to recognize my plane.

On that very day, I decided that the my First Class people would have my full undivided attention, I would move mountains and mole hills for them as they would for me. I would primarily deal with my First Class folks because they had my best interest at hand. My Coach people would be kept at bay. I would continue to have them as a part of my life but would never count on them for anything, nor ask them for anything. Finally, my Stand By people, they would not be allowed to board my plane.

Take a look at the people in your life. How will you arrange them on your plane of life?

Dreams

I don't know if many of you know that I run several different business ventures. Well before I decided to go into business for myself I had a successful career for approximately 15 years as a Paralegal and then as a Financial Analyst/Training Coordinator. After completing my education and hitting several roadblocks in the the company that I was working in, because I would not sacrifice myself just to earn a TITLE. I got frustrated with the corporate backstabbing. If I could not get a promotion based on my merits and contributions as suppose to me knowing this person and rubbing up this person then to hell with it. So I decided to step out on FAITH and start my business. The road has not been easy, as with life. But each day that I get up I am happy that I am living a dream that God has had his hands on. I could not face the day to day challenges of being in business with God's help. I am doing something that some people do not have to courage to do. It is much bigger than being a business owner, that is not the focus, it is merely believing in a dream and letting God guide you through your dream. Everyday I thank God for the good days and the especially the bad days. When I leave this world I can say that I took a CHANCE. I belived in myself like God believes in me. Even if I fail or better yet I succeed, I have a left a legacy to my children that I stepped out on faith took a chance and am living my DREAM.

How do you plan to fulfill your dream and if there are roadblocks in your way, what are they?